Changed Gurl

An Explanation

So because I'm bored and putting off work right now, I'm going to tell you a bit about me. On the front page of my blog, the title is "Changed Gurl", and in my tag line, it reads "Here I Am...Changed." If anyone here reading is a fan of Rascal Flatts, they will recognize this. If you're not a fan, go to Spotify or YouTube and give them a listen. The three men of Rascal Flatts; Gary, Jay and JoeDon, are my idols and my heroes and my inspiration. It sounds...

Hooray for Puree!

So...tomorrow I get to begin purees. I am both excited and nervous. There are so many foods I'm dying to try, mostly because I just want to frikkin eat. I miss eating! However, I also know that I need to go slow and introduce foods to Godzilla one at a time so I can rule out anything that doesn't agree with him. Tonight for dinner, I made some Italian Wedding soup and strained it to eat the broth. I did let one carrot into my bowl. I smushed it with...

Torture

Would you like to know the definition of torture? It's having bariatric surgery, not being able to eat, and watching the Food Network or Cooking Channel. Why am I doing this? I guess because I want food so badly, if I can't eat it, at least I can look at it. The last few hours, I've been watching BBQ Pitmasters. This show should be illegal. It's meat. I am a meat girl. I could probably eat anyone under the table while eating meat. Well, in my former life. With my new stomach? I...

Sooooo tired....

I'm so fucking sick of liquids. Ugh. I know it's in my best interest, and I know it's to heal my new tummy, but seriously, I'm just so done. I'm having a tough time getting everything down as well. Two protein shakes a day right now is my limit, and half the time, I can't even quite finish one. I only have the chocolate ones and right now, the thought of anything chocolate makes me want to vomit. If you knew me pre-surgery, you'd be shocked by this. I could...

Down down down

Today I had my one week surgical follow up with the Dr. I love my Dr. He is one of the most compassionate people I've ever met. He walked into the room, all smiles, and asked me how I was feeling. I said pretty good..and he jumped in and said "pretty good considering some jerk put you to sleep and took most of your stomach away?" and he just grinned. On May 4th I started my liver reduction diet. On May 16th I was sleeved. In that time frame, I have...

So pissed!!

When my son was in 1st grade, he was bullied - badly. I expected much, much more out of a private Catholic school - so I was stunned when the bullying began. And it wasn't just a little girl teasing him along with her friends; it was a little girl kicking him and hitting him, oftentimes in his private area. This all occurred at the school's after school program. I spoke with the coordinators - they said there was no problem. I spoke with the principal who told me "oh...

I am sleeved!

Wow, finally. I'm sleeved. Thursday morning I woke up and I wasn't as nervous as I feared I'd be. We got the hospital and only waited around 20 minutes or so before they called me back. I got into my gown, got some bloodwork drawn and got a couple shots in my tummy It was a catholic hospital where I had my surgery, so a nun came over to pray over me, which I have to admit, I much welcomed. My surgeon came to talk to me, and he let me know that he'd be doing a...

Tomorrow!

Tomorrow is the day that I've prayed about, wished for, waited for and thought of for such a long time. Today I'm doing ok, but I really want to eat. I haven't stopped thinking about food all day. Today my diet is just clear liquids. Oh, and the oh-so-delicious mag citrate which of course, cleanses the insides. All the junk I've ever eaten, it's not been worth it. It's not been worth the "suffering" of a two week liver reduction diet, or a day of liquids,...

Almost there...

I can't believe how quickly my surgery is coming upon me. Tomorrow is my last day to "eat" something, and by eat, I mean slug back two protein shakes, and eat my 2 ounces of protein and veggies. Wednesday I'm on all clears and have my mag citrate cleanse. Joy!! Thursday I'm planning on trying to sleep in for as long as I can, because if I don't, my nerves will make me sick to my stomach. Today my PCP called me to take me off of my cholesterol meds. Seems that they're...

One Step Closer

My weight at the hospital today was 8 pounds less than last Friday, and 11 pounds less from where I started. Yeah baby! Pre-op testing was today. It went quick, and I was home before I knew it. I should be all set for next Thursday! I'm still feeling the full range of emotions...nervous, anxious, scared, hopeful, excited! Surgery isn't until 2:30 which sucks. I was hoping to just wake up, head to the hospital, and get it going! But it ok, all good things come...

Fat Reminder

First the good. I saw my primary care doctor today. I've lost 11 pounds since my last visit there in March. Also! My liver reduction diet is working...down 4 pounds since Saturday. It may not be much, but I'll take it. Now the ugly. I work for a major holiday dot com company. It's family owned and operated. Our boss is quirky and loud and obnoxious. He's actually a spoiled rich boy who was handed a company to run from his daddy. He's also gender biased. There...

Liver Reduction Diet, Day 4

I guess you could say it gets easier. I'm still light headed and groggy. I'm still shockingly under 600 calories for the day. I had my Instead breakfast and skim milk for breakfast. I had jello for a morning snack at work. I had chicken broth, pudding and nectar crystal sky protein at lunch. I ate applesauce after work. Dinner was chicken and cabbage. I even ate a fudgesicle. Oh, and I just had two slices of turkey lunch meat and 3 ounces of baby carrots...

Liver Reduction Diet, Day 3

So I hear the first 3 days are toughest. I pray that's correct. Last night I had a binge/purge dream. I've NEVER purged. Ever. I've binged, but never vomited. So in my dream, I was eating gobs of stuff; ahh and peanut butter! I miss peanut butter! So anyway, in my dream, I used my toothbrush to gag myself to vomit. Except, I inhaled or did something wonky, and my toothbrush got lodged in my esophagus, and I had to call 911, but I couldn't speak,...

Liver Reduction Diet, Day 2

I'm tired. And I feel meh. Have a mild headache. Last night I was exhausted so I went to bed around midnight and woke up a little after 9 today. I didn't wake up starving, but ate right when I got up. I opted to NOT torture myself and gag on a protein shake, so instead I had my sugar free Instant Breakfast, which my surgeon allows, with the skim milk. Breakfast was 146 calories. For lunch, I did another Instant Breakfast, and my Jello sugar free pudding...

Liver Reduction Diet, Day 1

I want to try to journal as much about this time as I can, so I can always look back and see where I can from. Today has been...ok. Not my greatest day. I'd like to be stuffing my face with anything. My husband just ate two slices of pizza. He ate Doritos earlier and I asked if I could lick the cheese off of his fingers, but I restrained myself haha. My protein shake for breakfast did NOT go down well. I gagged the entire time, nearly vomiting. That wasn't pleasant. ...

Overloaded and overstuffed

What a day today has been. Yesterday I got my surgery date. Today I had my pre-op appointment. It took almost 3 hours, and I had my 10 year old with me, who showed so much maturity and patience today. We went over the liver reduction diet, which starts tomorrow morning. I did eat my last meal tonight. We went to Five Guys, and I had a double bacon cheeseburger and fries. And I loved every single bite. BUT! Yes, there is a but. I ate too much...

Houston, we have liftoff.

And by liftoff, I mean a surgery date. Holy shit. I'm feeling completely, utterly overwhelmed at the moment. I need some time for this to sink in. I submitted for approval on the 24th. Last night I was checking out my insurance website and finally saw the pre-auth on there. I checked today and it was gone, so I had a mini heart attack. However, I checked my surgeon's web site and saw that my patient portal was turned blue for insurance approval (blue means...

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