Waiting is KILLING me!!

So I'm still waiting to hear from my doctor and insurance company to see if I'm approved for my surgery.  I called and spoke to someone at my insurance company and I was afraid I'd be bothering them, but the woman I spoke to was fabulous.  She said perhaps by Friday I'll hear something.  I'm more nervous about two weeks on protein shakes than I am the actual surgery.  This morning I made one of the cappucino Bariatric Fusion shakes, took one sip, and poured it down the drink. ...

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Submitted

I saw my surgeon today.  I fucking gained 4 pounds since my last visit.  Yep.  Month 3 of my supervised diet and my fat ass gains.  Wonderful.  Anyhow, we discussed eating 1000 calories or under until my 2-week liver reduction diet, eating on smaller plates, and following the 20-20-20 rule.  It goes like this:  cut your food into 20 pieces, chew each piece 20 times, and wait 20 seconds between bites.  Also, we submitted to insurance for approval.  I should...

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A bad diet and other things....

Back in 2012 I joined a gym.  I thought ok, this is it, I'm going to change my life.  I'm a fat lazy ass who sits on the couch and does nothing and maybe, just maybe if I get my fat lazy ass into the gym, I won't be so fat or so lazy.  My husband joined with me.  He is neither fat, nor lazy.  Before we went to tour the gym, I panicked and had a massive anxiety attack.  I mean, I hadn't been to the gym since high school...and I am 37 now.  So yea.  Anyhow...so...

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Tis my birthday...

It's my birthday today...woo woo!  I love my birthday.  Except, today has been pretty dull.  I couldn't sleep last night; was anxious for my husband to get home. We work opposite shifts and never see one another.  So knowing that I had off of work today, I was trying to stay awake until 1am when he got home.  I was so happy when he came into bed and snuggled with me.  He's my best friend.  All the way around, he's my best friend.  We met by an odd circumstance,...

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