Over the Moon!!

Today I saw my surgeon again, for a follow up.  I've lost two pounds since my last visit.  Impressive, considering I wasn't trying.  I go back in one month.  At that time?  WE SUBMIT FOR INSURANCE APPROVAL!!!  Holy feck!  I am so so so excited.  My surgeon said he anticipates we'll be doing surgery in late May or early June.  OMG!  This is amazing.  This is amazing and awesome and I just pray now...I pray there are no delays or set backs because...

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Trapped

For so long, I denied my weight was a problem. I denied that my weight was as out of control as it really is.  I used every excuse in the book.  I'm flexible...for a fat girl.  I can walk fast and far without getting winded...for a fat girl.  I am able to shop and find clothes without a major issue...for a fat girl. But I AM OUT OF CONTROL. My health is out of control.  For so long, I've not felt as big as I am.  I knew I was big, but I never felt as big as I was,...

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Heavy things

Do you ever just feel...fat?  Like..ok.  I'm fat.  Obese fat.  But sometimes, y'all, I feel like I'm about 800 pounds.  Sometimes I just FEEL so much heavier than I am, and that sucks.  Lately though, my weight has been getting to me big time.  My back and hips have been taking the brunt of my weight and I gotta get my ass in gear pre-surgery. I did get really good news today though!  Last time I went to the dr., my blood pressure was 180 over something...I...

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